Yeah, I have to divulge that I’m a bit scared. Being 27 is another stage in my life and I can’t really accept it. People might think that it’s only a number but I say it’s a sign of vulnerability. Not being rigid, it’s like you’re life is going to end without you ever knowing it and I tried so many times to understand how most people would just take it as it is – as it was.
I am a bit sad, not a meresay. We are living in the world where people are bound to offer an end to their own life by being old. No offence but I don’t want to be old. I don’t want to stop doing things that I enjoy doing. This age thing is making me fragile and weak. Damn...
People, that’s what I think when I spent my time looking at myself without noticing that the world grew older with me. With us. I’ve been looking so severely at myself that I overlooked the fact that I am embarking on new experience, new encounterments, new life. Negative! That’s all that I’m thinking about. Stupid me...
Not apprehending that I should be proud of myself of my achievement being 27, at last, despite the ups and downs I staggered in the process of being one, where some or most people in world, does not really know what being 27 is all about. Selfish Ned. I should be proud! There’s more to the world than being a creepy-selfish-absurd minded guy.
Al last, I am me. The all-positive Ned. That’s explain the pre-menopause (hahaha) weeks I have. Gosh, how could I miss that! I have not being content with my ownself. All I’m thinking was that I am getting I’m old and that I could not do things like I used to. And the fact that other people will trounce my being – younger ones – scared me to the bone. Gosh, how random!
As I sing myself a happy birthday, I come to realize that I am just being human. Terrified by uncertainty and reluctant to see the bright sunny days over the highest mountain. I am still learning, I could see that, and I am not going to stop from helping myself. Now, I declare myself as a proud explorer whose life has just begun...
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